What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?
Last Updated: 19.06.2025 01:51
They are buried together, in the same grave..
With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.
Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other
How do you know when someone really loves you?
Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.
But, we were locked up after school.
I never cut or harmed myself..
Have you been with a stranger yet?
And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!
I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.
We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.
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I couldn’t, believe it.
Who then, do I blame.?
Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.
Why does it itch on my vulva, uterus, and sides of my vagina, but it doesn't itch inside the vagina?
I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!
When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!
Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.
What does it feel like when a guy cums in your ass?
He knew the spot.
Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.
One cannot hold on to bitterness.
Is it okay for a wife who comes home from a date to tell her husband what she did?
A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.
The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,
Put me off passion for life!!
I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .
I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.
Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..
Why do humans sweat while stressed?
I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.
But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!
I was scared of men, in general
What is the scariest thing that ever happened in your life?
She found it foreign!.
That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.
Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)
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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!
Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.
My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!
Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.
He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!
The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..
Why do some people believe that Homelander would be no match for Superman or Thor?
And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!
One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.
Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!
Have you ever had your crush reject you, and then later you all dated and married?
I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.
And i lived it daily.
I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers
What type of sex do women prefer, oral, anal, or vaginal?
And who doesn’t know suffering?
Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.
I had hoped to write a book about this .
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I will be 64.
My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.
But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.
My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.
When she asked me how she looked .
I have no regrets .
You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.
But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).
He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.
She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!
Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.
She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!
I did it because my mum asked me too!
It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.
BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.
Especially a lifetime of it.
My life is so biszare .
He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!
Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.
We all went to grammer schools
And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!
But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .
Where the ultimate outsiders.
We could never speak unless he spoke to us!
I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor
I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.
He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.
It was going to be , some day.
Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!
He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.
Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.
Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!
But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!
We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.
I could never make a relationship work though!
My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.
They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?
This is soul school!.
But im an empath, and i help lots of people.
You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .
She died at 55 of colon cancer.
He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.
Its mostly always from childhood abuse .
He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!
She wouldn,t have been !
All the time i was locked up.
5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.
Why did i forgive my father ?
Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.
She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.
Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.
She was in good health!
Was to survive, this bastard.
He was dying to do it , i knew.
And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!
Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!
And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)
Would this be the day?
We were not on the streets..
Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.
On the 31st of Jan this month .
He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!
He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!
But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !
Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.
I said to her
And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.
So, i spoilt her more .
(And it was in our own minds.)
My family never makes their pension either.
I of course replied” arh beautiful!
And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .
He resisted the act ,that day.
Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t
Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.
His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.
I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.
Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!
I think the readers, may guess!
My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.
As i do to all so called friends.?
So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.
Im dying but, im not bitter.
She was a women, a mother with her own children!.
I was writing from the time i was a small child.
Thats was my nicest nick name for him
Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.
I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.
I suffer greatly, because of BPD..
Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?
This is how, and why children get BPD.
We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..
His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!
He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.
I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)
As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.
Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..
But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,
But it wasn’t much.
Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.
But ive been too sick for many years..
As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!
I write beautiful poetry .
Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life
The only rule us 5 kids had .
I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.
I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.
Another so called friend had bit the dust..
Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.
Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..
So whats the point in blame.
Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..
I waited trembling.
The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!
He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .
I was seconnd youngest,
Comes on , in middle age.
I might have to go back 30 generations or more..
One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)
I don,t even have a pension.
So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.
I was 9 years of age.
She married twice! .
For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)
My mum and dad in the seventies!
It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.
Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years
What did i know ?
Im still living with it.
One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.
I know ,a lot about trauma.
As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)
.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them
And, all my friends down the years ,where users.
I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.
As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.
19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.
Ive learnt so much.
My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .
Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.
I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!
As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!
She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!
We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!
The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.
But im dying ,and its too late for me.
Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.
I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.
She loved him until the end.
She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.
Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.
I was very sick at this time too.
I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.
At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.
One cannot live in the past .